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Self Improvement Requires Stopping Being The Problem
Those who sow internal disorder reap external destruction
Last night, after another shitty day at work, I was sprawled on the couch endlessly scrolling through TikTok when I realized it was already 11 PM and I hadn’t eaten dinner, hadn’t cleaned the kitchen, hadn’t responded to urgent emails.
And there I lay, paralyzed. Seeing my reflection in the black screen of my phone and realizing I was the only one responsible for all this mess.
We’re really like this, aren’t we?
Running around like headless chickens, always late, always tired, always stepping in it. Then we get home and dump our frustrations on people who have nothing to do with it.
The poor cat who isn’t responsible for our boss being an idiot, the boyfriend who doesn’t understand why we’re in such a crappy mood, the friends who don’t even invite us out anymore because they know we’ll come up with a last-minute excuse.
And the most ridiculous part is that we create a thousand and one justifications for our shitty behavior.
“Oh, it’s Mercury retrograde,” “It’s burnout,” “It’s anxiety.” Yeah, right, but who’s been saying for three months they’re going to start therapy and hasn’t even made the first…
