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This World Doesn’t Love You Like I Do
This World Doesn’t Love You Like I Do
“I don’t care if you leave today.” The biggest lie I exchanged for “I really need a hug from you tonight.” Sitting on the couch, devouring chocolate ice cream while pretending that watching Netflix alone was exactly what I wanted.
Do you see the irony? We spend enough energy to power an entire city inventing creative ways NOT to say what we feel. As if there was a Nobel Prize for “Best Performance in Pretending Everything is Fine.”
Last night, I had an epiphany while watching my boyfriend try to guess why I was upset. There he was, poor thing, playing “Who Wants to Be a Telepath?” while I gave answers worthy of a politician on the campaign trail — vague, evasive, and completely useless.
And you know what the most ridiculous part is? What I really wanted to say was simply “I miss those five minutes of real conversation before we go to sleep.” But no. Instead, I opted for a passive-aggressive dissertation on how he poorly rearranges the dishwasher, pulling him into nonsense that he doesn’t even remember.
You, who are reading this (woman, you know), have probably done the same. That moment when you turn “I’m insecure” into a TED Talk about how he does the household chores poorly… And you see him with that look of “are…
